Monday, June 7, 2010
WHERE WAS GOD WHEN THE TORNADO HIT?
First of all let me say I sincerely do not want to step on any toes or to make light of anyones religious beliefs with the following entry. I am the first to say that each individual has the right and the freedom to believe anything they want to when it comes to the subjuect of God or religion or spirituality. Myself I have spent most of my adult life trying to make sense of it all as I tread down the path i alone have chosen to take.And I admit that my path has often changed or veered as new information came my way. And Im not about to claim that my beliefs are the true beliefs for everybody. Again each person is capable of choosing their own personal path and that is the way it should always be.As a young child Iwas raised up in a religious family and was made to go to church every time those doors were open.My parents were well meaning folks who thought they were teaching me the "right" way to live so I never have blamed them for any beliefs I have had to overcome to find my true enlightenment.But as I look back at some of the beliefs I was taught as a child it sends shivers down my spine. For you see I was taught at an early age to be afraid of God becasue if I didnt live up to His standards(which were the church's standards)I would eventually die and my soul would be doomed to a hell where the fire burned my soul eternally.And you know what--that belief sure did scare the hell(excuse the pun) out of me. I had no reason to doubt those beliefs even thought to me it seemed a little overboard to punish someone forever.So as the years went by I started to feel discontent with what the church was teaching. And even tho I had to attend the church sessons I was only counting the days til I was old enough that I could make my own decisions as to my spirituality. So as soon as I got out of school and on my own I immediately quit the church cause the teachings by this time seemed really outdated and much too closed minded for my taste. However at the same time there was those deeply ingrained beliefs I had accepted as an innocent child and they kept nagging at me. I suppose I was still afraid that Iwas doomed to an eternal life of hell fire becasue I had abandoned the church. My next step was to unlearn some of the teachings taht had been fed to me as a child. And believe me it has taken a very long time to rid myself of some of these beliefs and I dont kid myself and I know that maybe somewhere deep in my subconsciousness there my still be a thing or two I have hidden from myself. God I hope not but I may never be quite satisified that I have gotten all of them out. Now thats not to say that he church didnt teach me some good qualities because they did. I kept the beliefs that were of a positive nature and most importantly I have tried to live my life by the Golden Rule which the church taught. Today after many years of studying, research, questioning,soul searching, and reading any material of a spiritual nature I have arrived at a good place in my own m ind. Again I remind you this is only MY beliefa nd Im not trying to convert anyone to my way of thinking.But one thing I have found is that I cannot and will not accept any teaching about God or Spirit that teaches to be fearful of God.I see all of us as individual entities of this God or Spirit, and I cannot see any figure that resides in the ethereal world watching us and waiting to judge us one day to see if we got to Heaven or go to Hell.As a matter of fact I really dont see how anyone can accept a loving God or Creator that would allow such things to happen to His creation over the years.I know the beliefs that some say God lets us make our own choices and thts why bad things happen at times. Maybe so but how could a loving and kind Father figure who knows all and sees all allow say nature to ruin the lives of good people for no reason?I just saw where a tornado hit in Indiana and killed several peo[ple. Now where was God when this happened?If He was sitting off somewhere knowing this was about to happen why didnt He stop it. One may say He could but he allows bad things to happen to teach us lessons.I dont know about you but that sure doesnt sound like a loving kind father to me. Look at the innocent children who are borninot this world say deformed or braindamaged. Does God allow this to happen a nd if so Why? It just doesnt make any sense to me thats all Im saying and forgive me but if that is the God you worship then count me out as a believer.I wish I did have the answers but at least now I know I can make my own decisions based on different paths and different spiritual works and I dont have to "belong" to any church. And its also a great freedom to me in my world at least i dont have to be worrying about a Devil going around causing me grief.But that shall be another post about the old Satan. Until I see you again my wish is that you and yours have a most wonderful week ahead. Be safe and enjoy every moment cause you nev er know when this experience is up! "HUGS" to you all.