Sunday, April 21, 2013

WHAT CONDITION MY CONDITION IS IN

How am I doing you may ask. Well, I'm not too unwell thank you. Lately I've been giving much thought to just what is it I'm trying to accomplish here on earth. And guess what, I'm still not sure. Even after all these years of living I still question as to whether I'm in the "right" world or not. Believe me, I have some strong doubts that I'm where I wanted to be at this stage in my life. Please allow me to try and explain just how I am feeling at this particular point in my existence. And as I do at times I am going to use some of my favorite music as a reference point. I will start with a verse from the old Kenny Rogers and the First Edition song titled What Condition My Condition Was In. I quote:  "I woke up this morning with the sundown shining in, I found my mind in a brown paper bag but then I jumped on a cloud and fell eight miles high I tore my mind on a jagged sky I just dropped in to see what condition my condition was in." That's kinda the way I've been feeling here lately . Kinda confused if you know what I mean. When I saw on TV the bombings at the Boston Marathon I was really upset. Here we go again I thought--ignorant people killing innocent men ,women, and children because of some misguided beliefs. Terrorism at its finest! Now please, can anyone tell me why any human can believe it is appropriate to blow up, shoot, maim, or destroy another innocent human being? And especially in the name of a God or holy deity who would want one to kill innocents. If by the slightest chance that is even close to being true then I am sure I am not in the right world for me. Way too violence and blood shed for my taste. The way some of us treat each other is just a downright dirty shame! I've been abused, lied to, taken advantage of, and then used some more by several folks in my life who did those things mostly for money or some other selfish purpose. Like the following verse from The Grateful Dead song called "Trucking" which goes like this: "Set up like a bowling pin, knocked down it gets to wearing thin, they just won't let you be...." I feel that also. I still try and treat everyone as nice as I can but still there are those who still just want to use me for their own selfish purposes. Even here on this blog as I try to encourage others to think for themselves and to share their innate goodness with others, I have to daily fight the "spammers" who try to use the blog to make more money for themselves. They could care less as to the content of the blog, they can only see dollar signs in their mirror. To them I am only a "mark" for them to use in their search for money. How sad-these people are just so misguided in their lives. I could go on and on as to the perception I see from this world but I see no use in doing so. Either you get it or you don't. I believe all human beings are born somewhat selfish but one must learn top overcome that and instead learn to share instead of just take, take, and take! I have been taken advantage of by folks who go to church every sunday, those who put on a good show for everyone, always talking about loving your neighbor, treating others right, etc and then on Monday sell me something without revealing the problems I would be faced with later. And then just tell a bunch of lies on Tuesday and every day since. And they never own up to the fact that they really did defraud me in any way. Then they go back to church the next sunday and everything is righteous again? I don't think so but then again who am I to say what's right?  I may not go to church but at least I don't try to be someone I'm not. Why do people think money is the only thing they need? Or to wield power over the masses? But that seems to be the way of this world so yes, I am once again beginning to think I am in the wrong place. This little rant of mine will maybe help me to get back on track, I don't know. But one thing I do know is this, Again borrowing a verse form Jerry Garcia's band who says: "Going home, back to where I belong, sit down patch my bones and get back on truckin almost home". Yes, I am almost home I can start to see the finish line and I'm sure my remaining years on earth will fly by as usual. And while I'm awaiting my so called "death" or what I instead like to label , my "rebirth" maybe next world will be the one I'm looking for. A world where everybody realizes we are all one. Or as Lionel Ritche once sang: If I was at a place where dreams were for dreamers, and all you wished came true. I'd wish the world had all happy people and then there'd be no more wishing to do. "I want to thank all you wonderful people for allowing me a moment to just vent some of my frustrations. I do love all of you and wish for you and yours the very best of everything. And please , if you will, try and do a little something nice for someone from your heart to theirs. "HUGS" to all.

14 comments:

Christopher Dos Santos said...

Namaste brother Ron, very interesting post. This world is definitely the place where you belong. Light shines in the presence of darkness my brother.

By nature, our expression of consciousness is dualistic. When we entertain a face to face meeting with ignorance we must always remember it is our personal choice to extend empathy and love which will represent the balance.

You shine so that others may know light does exist and that love is the only path of honour.

In Lak'ech, brother Ron, prosper with knowledge, live with love, be a beacon of light...

captron52 said...

Thank you Christopher. It's folks like yourself who give me the determination to carry on! Peace to you and yours my friend.

The Truth Seeker's Guide said...

Hey Ron.
Finally dropping in again after yet more health problems. Like you say here, we keep getting obstacles thrown in our path that test out endurance.
My most trusted ally in life is patience. It'll all makes sense eventually!
Stay on the path my friend!
All the best to you.
Carl (The 'Guide)

captron52 said...

Thanks for stopping by Carl.Patience has never been my greatest virtue but I'm working on it.So good to have you back, get well quickly! The best to you and yours always

Dennis said...

Nice vibrations. Dennis

Silentwhisper1 said...

Hi friend.
Think of you lots-had to pay you a visit to let you know I'm still here and around (twitter).
All is well.Sorry I haven't updated my blog (soon)Waiting for my mantra, so to speak.Been to Mexico and back.Had a birthday.And now its ball season for Lil (you know how that gets every year)spinning days and weekends.
I want you to know (about your post u made) ..that you are right where you should be.I know we question our stages of life, its probably normal-I do it all the time,lol.While there's still much time we should light a fire under our asses, least this week.Yeah? hehe.

Bunches of hugs from my family to yours))))))))))

Deexo

Chris Ledgerwood said...

Ron, your friendship has made a difference in my life. We all feel a little out of place in this world. If we didn't....If you didn't.... then someting would be terribly wrong. A candle in the darkness is all we can hope to be. And that is enough.

captron52 said...

thanks for stopping in Dennis

captron52 said...

Hi Dee And a belated happy birthday wish for you! Great to see you back on blogger. I have really missed you! Thanks for the visit. The best to you and your beautiful family!

captron52 said...

Hey Chris Thank you for the encouraging words. You are right of course! Your friendship is greatly appreciated! The best to you and yours always

DarkStar888 said...

The egregore group of thinkers manipulate the illuminati pyramid through a process of hypnotic mind control, know as kabbalism. This pyramid is in a DEEP TRANCE STATE and is composed of the elite royal bloodlines that control world affairs. Institutions such as the Vatican, the Monarchy, the United Nations, NATO, the World Bank, the World Health Organization, the Club of Rome, the Council on Foreign Relations, the Trilateral Commission, the International Monetary Fund, the Red Cross, the Red Crescent, the US Federal Reserve, United Way, Habitat for Humanity, World Wildlife Federation, Greenpeace, the Salvation Army (Red Shield-Rothschild), The Watchtower Society – Jehovah’s Witnesses, The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, The Roman Catholic Church, Protestant and Evangelical Christian Organizations, the World Zionist Movement, the media, the movie industry, the recording industry, the Corporation of the United States of America … you name it, they own it and manipulate it in one way or another.

Their agenda is saturated with deceit and corruption. The world is deceived by their manipulation, thereby generating fear and hypnosis, in much the same manner as they, themselves, have been manipulated into being pawns for the luciferian MINDSET. The luciferian / illuminati mindset feeds insatiably on this fear. However, all the organizations and world systems are only the tip of the iceberg, and are a decoy to throw everyone off the trail of what is really happening, and what will happen over the next few years. In this conjured up the whole illusory experience known as the 3 dimensional world we appear to live in.

Watch Wait & Don't React!

captron52 said...

Thanks for the visit Dark Star hope you and yours are doing well!

Eve said...

Hey Ron! I know it's easy to feel like nothing makes sense, and you know what, sometimes it doesn't. Infact, maybe most of the time nothing makes much sense. It's terrible to see things like the bombings in Boston..I know that most people aren't like that though. Reading your kind words in your peaceful posts has made a difference to me! Whenever I read your blog I come away thinking about what you said for hours..nice work my friend! I think you're making a difference one reader at a time. *hugs* to you and your family.

captron52 said...

Thank you Eve for those kind and very encouraging words! I do appreciate that so much. The best to you and yours also!